Feel complicated while heading to new year ..

People usually feel very happy before new year, but I am not the same. I use to look forward this festival, but now really worry before the day is coming.. Where to go?? Where to celebrate?? What to do?? If one family relationship is not good, is very hard to celebrate an important festival happily.. Is it mistake to do decision so hurry? Feel regret is too late??

Finally you are healthy as before :)

Im so glad that every bad things has passed.. Hope that "you" will be healthy always and better than before :) I think I cant forget that what had happened to "you" in NOV 2009.. What to say , if we are strong enough to fight "sickness".. then we can move to the other stage. Whatever, had happened let it past, i will always pray for "you". I love "you" so much so much..

Surrounded by love?? Are we??

Sometime we just cant see that we are surrounded by true love, agree?? We just always ignore everything , keep saying i will find a day to do this or that . When is that day? We do not know, how long that we can stay in this world? I think that if we want to do anything, just go ahead dont wait till when you cant do only regret. I love you granny (my mum mother's) which i do not have chance to tell her, she's now staying with the angel. So, what i can do is keep her in my heart forever. I will like to tell my parents that i love them so much, im so proud to be their child. Nowadays, my working place is 1 hour far from hometown but I will still go home every weekend to see my family members. Eventhough, I need to work from monday till sunday, I still will go back on saturday after work to join them for dinner and come back at night :) I just want to visit them, be with them, enjoy the time together. How happy am I?? Uncountable..

Big Family... Good? No Good?

Today is not a special day, i wonder whether am i luckily to born in such big family? People keep trying to take advantage from us and saying something that is fake to spoilt our name. Why? If you try to take something that is not belong to you, i don't think is right. How come they can be so bad till steal all your things and pretend nothing happen and is reasonable to have it? They do not have to work for anything and just think of the idea to get something from you or threaten your family. They will not be shy or embarrass after taking advantage on people? I trusted that if you treat people badly, in the end you will double pay to their family. They still can sleep soundly or having nightmare every night? So, please think before you do. Is good to have this kind of relative, so that we know that in this world no matter what you cant trust anyone and have to beware of them. We had learn many many lesson, so we can protect ourselves and prevent bad things happen to us. We have to be strong and do not let the bad people to have chance to hurt our family and friend. :)

After rain, sun will rise ... :)

I know after rain, the sun will still rise. No matter, how sad am i is also very small matter. I know that time can reduce the pain in our heart slowly. Finally, it will disappear forever. I am happy that what i have today because i work out very hard. Positive thinking is so important but sometime i really forget when too depressed. I feel so thankful to people that help me in my journey :) (esp: My family and friends that love me so much). I hope all of you happy and healthy always :P

Am I a toy??? changing friend each part of our life..

Sometime, I really feel strange that how come people can be so...... I know that one kind of rice can feed different kind of people.. How come i feel like i am toy? when you need me then you find me, else just dissapeared? I know that we cant be together for the entire life, each stage we will meet different kind of friend or people. When primary school, we will have friends, secondary school we will have new friends and in university we will also have new friends, when we work we will have new friends again. We are like acting different kind of movie, every part of our life. Somehow, I really hope that our friendship can last for long. Im quite lucky person because of each stage i hv true friend which till now we still care for each other although we didnt meet up. This relationship cant use money to buy, how we treat people and what we will get in the end is worth. We keep each other in heart and I really miss you all so much. As for people that not worth to do, we just have to choose to let go. So that, our life can move on and will be better.

Life… No life…. Work, sleep, eat….

Life is like a movie that will never end each person acting different character. Everyday, we will create our own story. Good or bad, happy or sad, facing different people saying different story. Although, sometime we really feel stress of something but still need to face it. The process might be suffering but still have to go through it, everyday settle different kind of problem. This is what so called life.

Life… No life…. Work, sleep, eat….